012505 [ 05:33 pm ]
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i cant live with him n e more i ahte hate HATE him so much!!!!! omg i cant deal with him hes always in apissy mood...untill my mom comes around then its kiss ass time i fuckin hate him i want him gone..i know just one time when he says sumthin to me im gonna go off and then ill b the bad guy im gonna kill him he has hurt us so0o0o0o0o0 much hes a fuckin ass hole and dosent need to be in this family! i just WISH that we would have left him a long time ago when my mom asked us. omg i really really regret it! all he has done to me is trama tize me lie to me scare me but im not a fuckin 10 year old any more and i now understand hes an ass hole i just wish everything will hurry up and hell be out! UGHHHHHdfjgdsavhjbegr pisses me off!
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123004 [ 11:48 pm ]
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finally im gonna update! woo
well christmas
from brenda
5$ to McDonalds Yumm (we wernt suposta exchange gifts but she did n e wayz)
crystal got me a Build-a-bear
nick got me a Digital Camera :)
and his mom got me a 40$ gift certificate to Ulta
from my parents i got
mean girls
a watch
smelly loation
make up
lipgloss
gift cards
i bought all my gifts so it really wasnt a surprise.. i got more but i 4got
for my birth day
nick came and picked me up with a coffee! yumm then we went and got McDonalds and then went to his house and i got a card and flowers and a card 4 my phone cuz its pre-paid :-/
then we went to bed and he wouldent wake up! but i got him up eventually and i watched him play a game and then we got ready for dinner so we went to Chilis and our food took 4-ever so we decided that we wouldent go see the movie we were gonna see so then we went back to my house and ate yummy cake and then i opend my khols gift card 50$-parent and brother and then 25 to bath and body works and then we watched saving silver men oh yeah n crystal came and gave me baloons and she watched with us and then he had to go home :(
and yet it never fails my dad once again calls on my brothers birthday but seams to "forget" "not have enough time" to call me on mine...i c whos more important
oh and my other brother got his sticken in his arm/nib thing out today...i guess thats kinda cool :-/
tomorrow im gonna go get my hair cut:) and then mabye get my car an oil change idk then hopefully seeing nick then stayin up for a new year...hopefully it will be allot better :/
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112204 [ 09:19 pm ]
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ugh its just so fuckin hard to just watch...and imagen
life has changed so much
pittl lil shit dosent upset me n e more
and it annoys me when ppl talk about their drama
cuz its all so fuckin stupid
and i hate it
y is it my family
y a 9 year old
y does it have to be so difficult
y did it happen
its so hard to just watch
we all say i konw it hurts i know
but we dont know
we have no clue
how can you ask are you doin okay?
how the fuck do you think were all doing?
are you stupid
i hate it
hes fuckin 9
9 year olds play out side
go to school
play with hteir friends
but no
he has to wrap his arm
scream through a bath
see doctors every day
this is SO unfair
i dont under stand
y
i hate it omg ihate it
i try to be okay with it
but its not okay
hes 9
and our family was fucked up enough
the rest of his life
the rest of it
his dreams have changed
our dream have changed
it so stupid
sorry this was so long
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111804 [ 10:33 pm ]
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so Daniels home now...they have to wait untill his arm heals to get a fake one. hes doing okay he has really bad mood swings b/c of the meds and b/c of his anger...hes seeing a phyc and so it my mom and dan. i think im gonna tell my councler to tell my teachers bc its hars to get my work done with everything goin on...tonight he took a 1 1/2 bath with straight screaming n yelling it was so bad he was in 1 of his mood swings it was kinda sad hes was leik y did this happen to me and bla bla bla y didnt i just die :-/ yeah
in cheerleading we won regionals! yay
thats really all thats been hapning yup
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110804 [ 08:17 pm ]
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oh i guess i better clear that up...my brother was in a car accident...he lost his arm nad has a big boo boo on his head but all his insides are ok n hes still alive
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110804 [ 07:57 pm ]
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well...i guess about every 1 knows...yeah!
my moms okay she has her moments
dans kinda all depressed and very "im sorry like" and CRAZY
im im doin okay i guess...probally hopping back n forth between peoples houses
brad...we just e-mailed him so idk
but i guess hes gonna just get a prostetic arm and plastic sergury on his head so yeah...hell be okay
ill update later when i have time
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103004 [ 04:13 pm ]
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Hey i havent updated in a LONg time well
we got third at all-county and districts is this wednesday at G-F.
school goin okay i have all A's except in alg2(c) and eng(b) i got a new car...well it was my moms its a 2000 pretty nice...my other one broke! l0l
yeah me n nick have been together a year and 4 months l0l a long time were gonna go to panera and then to see the grudge tomorrow should b scarry!
dan n daniel went to go see my grandma...i guess shes not as bad as we thouhgt she was...but they found sumthin n her lungs they dont know what it is yet...but it probally cancer...she had it b 4...but she continues to smoke :( idk what else has been new...pretty boring..
oh i get the downstairs bed room cuz my brother finally moved you n im gonna do it dark purple and gold it gonna look PRETTY! well i guess thats it 4 now
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092104 [ 05:23 pm ]
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soo0o0o school started
my car broke :( and we cant afford a new 1 :(
it sux i hate not having a car!
cheerins pretty okay
the begingin stunt is kina hard but the rest is easy SO FAR!
hmmm friday will be a nice day...but they always are
qucik update...very bored n pissed that i cant go eat break with nick like my mom said i could...b/c well..you know i dont have a car :( and she HAS to take daniel to his schools ice cream social...b/c he needs the ice cream?
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090804 [ 05:11 pm ]
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a girl and a guy were speeding over 1OO mph on the road ..
girl; slow down, im scared.
guy; no this is fun.
girl; no it's not, PLEASE, it's too scary.
guy; then tell me you love me.
girl; fine, i love you, slow down.
guy; now give me a BIG hug.
* girl hugs him *
guy; can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? it's bugging me.
in the paper the next day;
a motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. two people were on it, but only one survived. the truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. instead, he had her say she loved him and felt her hug one last time, then he had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.
if there's anyone you love this much on here or in real life, re-post this
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083104 [ 10:30 pm ]
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so havent updated in a while
well... cheerleadins been good...we are good this year! yup yup my last day of wokr is on monday! :) then back to school :( sat i have to wake up at 3-4 AM to go to Elkins (WV) and go to my aunts furnal :( imma probally cry allot...when i found out i went over to nicks and cried 4 an housr n then made omlets :-/ then were gonna go to my property while were up there n then back that night.
nuthin really has happend
nick realy movin now es got the sign up n every thing
his mom wants to move to stafford or sumthin...:( but um NO!
OH the ppl r movin out this weekend HELL YESSS im so happy i cant wait!
i need to go school shoppin i need shirts! n sum shoes!
my brother is transfering school and yea im goin with him tomorrow n then to bredas to look after zack n then to nicks when he get back from NOVA l0l well this is pointless so yeah...
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